Rejection

Continuing on with yesterday’s theme, it turns out there are worse things than nothing. Yeah, I already knew that but bear with me.

Met up with some friends/Hashers for a few beers at Cheap Charlies. Always nice to have company and some folks around to punish with my witty repartee and bad jokes. When they’d had enough of that nonsense I wasn’t ready to call it a day, so I moseyed over to Mango’s for some beachside drinking and dining (I had chicken fingers so that counts).

Anyway, there is a gal there who works in the front office that I call Gee. I always say hello when I pass by her desk and she offers a smiling response for my effort. I find her quite attractive in a mature, non-bargirl kind of way. She wasn’t working when I arrived last night but as I was sipping my beer she came out on the back patio to greet me. That was a first! We chatted a bit and I asked her if she was a manager at Mango’s and their sister resort, D’Kudos. She nodded and said, “actually, I’m an investor in both”. I’m not sure what got into me (besides the beer of course) but I started asking her more personal questions. Like how old are you (39) and do you have a boyfriend (not currently). I then asked her why an attractive woman such as herself didn’t have a boyfriend and she told me that she hadn’t found the kind of man she’s looking for. My oh my! My next question was the obvious one: “would you like to get together with me for dinner sometime?” She looked at me in a peculiar way, maybe it was pity or maybe she found me pathetic, and simply said “no.” She did add that she appreciates my support of Mango’s and hopes to see me dining there often.

Ouch. After Gee walked away the sky and water took on an odd red hue. Maybe mother nature was blushing after witnessing my humiliation.

I finished my beer and left. The smoothie I made at home with the frozen fresh strawberries was most excellent.

This morning I joined up with Scott, Jim, and Troy for a steep climb and hot walk.

The guys.
Dicey steps to start the climb.
Scott must have been channeling Günter because he picked one of the steepest trails up the mountain I’ve experienced. Hard work it was!
A view along the way…
…and another from a little higher.
Workin’ it!
A cabin in the woods. Honestly, if I lived up there I might only leave once a week or so. That climb kicked my ass.
But the Candyman had work to do…
The grass was taller than me in places…
But as always, it was good to be out and about.
I hope you enjoyed this post. And yes, our trail was that steep!

Going to attempt a light bar crawl tonight. Captain’s Arms and Wet Spot have both reopened. And I’ve promised the door girls at Alaska that I’d visit the bar “soon”. A man is no better than his word after all. And I know how it feels to be rejected.

I got nothin’

I can’t even claim to have zip.

More and more bars continue to reopen. I’m going to have to commence with a bar crawl one of these days soon. It is kinda sorta nice to have the sexy ladies trying to entice me into their establishments again. Too bad I’m not really into the girly bar scene, although perhaps an exception is in order.

Did a few beers at Cheap Charlies last night and enjoyed the company of my favorite there, Rose. Maya was working as well and I decided to forgive her for her past transgressions (basically, ignoring me on New Year’s Eve and thereby hurting my feelings). She had a big smile and a look of relief when I bought her a lady drink. Ah, it’s the little things, right?

Then it was on to Alley Cats for the first time in months. Saw some of the old regulars and wished Billy (who runs the dart tournaments) a happy birthday. Closed the place down. Well, it closes at 8:00 these days, but still.

Made my way home without incident and successfully prepared the smoothie that was aborted the previous night. Interestingly, using fresh fruit instead of frozen made for a less enjoyable beverage. It wasn’t cold enough. Next time I go fresh I’ll add some ice cubes I think.

This morning’s walk wasn’t anything special. I just hoofed it up the National Highway towards Subic town, then turned around and walked back. And that was as boring as it sounds.

Sorta like this post, eh?


A woman’s husband comes home hammered every night, and she always yells at him before going to bed alone.

One day she decides to try some reverse psychology. When her husband staggers in that night, she’s waiting for him in her best lingerie. She sits him in an armchair and gives him a back rub.

“It’s getting late, big boy,” she says after a few minutes. “Why don’t we go upstairs to bed?”

“We might as well,” slurs the husband. “I’m going to be in trouble when I get home, anyway.”

UPDATE: The last time I said “I got nothin’” was in January 2019. That nothin’ was a bit more substantial than this one though.

Seriously?

So, I had the good fortune to secure some fresh strawberries. A friend is having fresh fruits and veggies shipped down from Baguio once a week and I ordered a kilo of berries for 450 pesos ($9). Yeah, a bit pricey but I haven’t seen a strawberry since the last time I visited Baguio back in February.

I came home last night with visions of a fresh strawberry and banana smoothie dancing in my head.

Those smoothie dreams were soon to be shattered, however.

When I was removing the blender from the shelf I somehow dropped the canister. There would be no smoothie for me last night. I am neither admitting nor denying that alcohol played a part in the accident. I do recall exclaiming “Seriously?” as I viewed the broken glass on the floor.
I’ll try again tonight with my new and improved blender.

A broken blender may well be an apt metaphor for my love life. It seems I don’t mix well with the female of the species. Last night I got a message from Jessa saying “I am serious about you but you aren’t serious about me”. I’m not sure why, but that message left me with a blend of feelings–anger, hurt, and sadness. I was a few beers into my night at that point so I chose to limit my response to “I’m sorry you feel that way”. This morning we chatted our way through the issue, but honestly, that kind of emotional manipulation is a huge red flag for me. More and more I’m thinking I might just be better off alone.

And when you are surrounded by nature’s beauty whilst out walking are you ever really alone? My hike today was a beast–6.66 kilometers exactly. Scary, huh? And check out this spider:

Well, you can’t really see the spider I suppose. He was perched right in the crosshairs of that perfect “X”. From a distance, it appeared the X was floating on air, it was only when I got a closer look I saw that it was, in fact, a web. A web unlike any other I’ve ever seen

And I would suck as a banana harvester because you’d never get me to climb this ladder:

What you can’t see is just how far the drop beneath the ladder really is–that tree is growing up from a hillside. NOPE!
And that concludes today’s post.

Centurion


Sincerity is everything. If you can fake that, you’ve got it made.

A post from yesterday’s Hash run.

It was a pretty special day at the Subic Bay Hash House Harriers as we celebrated our run number one thousand four hundred. Coincidentally, it was my one hundredth run with the SBH3. I know technically that doesn’t make me a Centurion, but it’s about as badass as I’ll ever be I reckon.

I was also one-third of a Hare trio and we laid a fine 7K trail if I do say so myself. Lots of my fellow Hashers seemed to agree. They especially liked the fact that we took them in a new direction out towards Easter mountain. Our previous “COVID” runs had pretty much started at the four corners intersection on the My Bitch trail. Only so many ways to go from there and it was getting kind of old for all of us I think. The feedback that was most gratifying to me was that the trail was well marked and easy to follow. No one got lost which is always my goal when I Hare.

Anyway, we were loaded down with powder and other trail marking apparatus which pretty much precluded taking pictures along the way. Sorry about that!

The trail for run #1400.
The brave souls who met at the designated location to hike that trail.
At the Hash circle, we initiated three virgins into our kennel.

In recognition of my achievement in completing 100 runs, I was awarded the coveted SBH3 vest. Oh, and we also had hats made to commemorate our 1400 runs.

The front of said vest and hat…
And the back.
Preparing for the presentation ceremony…
I was practically oozing with pride when I slipped on the vest for the very first time…
I do believe I can see at least another 100 runs in the future. One can hope at least!

Anyway, it was a good day for yours truly.

Keep your distance!

Nothing ever stays the same I suppose, but things have changed so fast it boggles the mind. Yesterday was the grand re-opening of one of my favorite bar hangouts–Cheap Charlies. So I was excited about dropping in and getting reacquainted.

What in the name of Satan is this?

Well, I was at least greeted warmly and one of the gals even remembered my drink of choice–San Mig Zero. I arrived around 4:00 p.m. and there were only two other customers. None of my old favorite bargirls was working, but Heidi was there as the cashier/manager. Regular readers might recall that I had a big crush on her back in the day, but alas, it proved to be a one-way street.

So, I guess this is what the new normal looks like at Cheap Charlies. That’s Heidi bending over in the background by the way.

If you are a social drinker this setup seems to defeat the purpose. And if you like to buy the ladies a drink and enjoy some chat and maybe a cuddle or back massage, well, that doesn’t appear possible these days.

That’s me and Heidi last year. We did get a chance to chat a little yesterday, but it was through a plastic screen with no touching.

I did wind up buying all the girls working a drink as kind of a welcome back gesture. Heidi tells me that with the reduced staffing levels most of the waitresses will only work a couple of days a week. Guess I’ll need to come back to see some of my old favorites. From a distance.

But the beer was cold and I guess that’s the main thing.
And my seat afforded me this view of “mama”, the homeless woman I try to provide food money to every day. When I can find her…she gets around!

I only stayed for a couple of beers at Cheap Charlies, then made my way to my new old favorite hangout–Mango’s. I kind of feel a duty to be loyal after they stayed open to accommodate desperate old guys like me during the quarantine.

And I’ve grown quite fond of the view from my perch on the patio too.

That was my evening. Meeting up with Pubic Head and Blow My Pipe in a few minutes so we can lay trail for today’s Hash. That’s a downside to these noon starts if you are a Hare. Oh well, all in a day’s work.

Freedom rocks!

Well, in my case, it walks! It’s still good though.

Today is the first Sunday in way too long that I haven’t been under lockdown quarantine rules. I celebrated by taking a long (13K) morning walk out to the old Navy base and back via the National Highway.

This is the only photo I bothered taking. Not a particularly good one but that’s Barretto beach at the base of the mountain in the background. Weather was very nice at least.

And the freedom has only just begun! More announcements of bar openings today, including one of my favorites–Cheap Charlies. I’ll be popping in for a cold one (or two) later this afternoon.

And in a coincidence of sorts, Facebook reminded me of this memory from one year ago. Yep, that’s the view from Cheap Charlies. It will be good to enjoy that again too!

And speaking of memories, two years ago my rescue dog Buddy was rescued yet again.

Thank God someone spotted him and waded out into that trash-filled pond to bring him back out.
Buddy came ashore wet, scared, and hungry…
He was glad to be home and has never tried to run away again…He’s my good Buddy now.

Yesterday I had some girls over to the house. Made up a batch of spaghetti with meatballs. Served it with broccoli and cornbread. Sorry, for some reason I neglected to take any photos of the food. It was all fine I think although I was a bit surprised that the most popular dish was the broccoli. Go figure.

My guests. Left to right, Jessa, Ru Ru, and Kat.

Jessa spent the night with me again but her Aunt Flo from Redlands was visiting so all we did was sleep. She seems like a nice young woman. I’m not sure why I don’t have a stronger attraction/connection with her. As I walked her to the trike stand this morning she asked me how I was feeling. I told her I was feeling okay. She clarified “I mean, how are you feeling about me?” Yikes! I just told her I was taking things a day at a time and we’d see where that takes us. Yeah, it was a sucky answer but it really is the best I’ve got right now. Something in my gut is telling me that I’m destined to spend my life alone and maybe I should just accept that.

I’m not quite ready to give up though. Jessa may not be the one and if I determine that’s the case I’ll need to let her know so she doesn’t waste her time on me. I can already tell she is thinking of a future with me and that’s something I’m not ready to seriously consider at this point.

Maybe I just love my freedom too much.


Freedom’s just another word for nothin’ left to lose,
And nothin’ ain’t worth nothin’ but it’s free,
Feelin’ good was easy, Lord, when Bobby sang the blues,
And buddy, that was good enough for me,
Good enough for me and my Bobby McGee.

Live free or die

Here’s wishing all my American brothers and sisters a Happy Independence Day! The freedoms we have fought to defend and preserve these past 244 years are once again under attack, this time from within our borders. Have we lost our will to stand against tyranny and oppression?

I still have faith in my fellow citizens.

I reveled in some newly regained freedoms last night. First stop was the Hot Zone bar. It was me, two other customers, and the owner, Jay. Two waitresses, no dancers. Still, it’s a start. I had one beer and headed out.

Every other chair was turned upside down to ensure proper social distancing. That’s not going to encourage anyone to buy a lady drink for a gal who can’t even sit next to you.

After leaving Hot Zone I made my way down the highway to my “new normal” regular hangout, “Gomans”. Except it is not Gomans anymore. The business has now met all current quarantine requirements and is legally open once again. I can now reveal the real name of this establishment: Mango’s. I enjoyed some dine-in food with my beers but pretty much had the place to myself. I told the manager I’d help spread the word about their re-opening on social media. Wishing them well as we move forward.

I had a full moon to guide me as I stumbled walked home last night.

For yesterday’s hike, Scott drove us out ten kilometers or so to Castillejos for a trek up to Balon falls and through the Aeta (Filipino indigenous people) resettlement village.

We also passed by the PREDA Foundation (People’s recovery empowerment and development assistance) headquarters. As I understand it, it is a rescue operation for used and abused underage girls and boys. I’m not sure, but I guess volunteers there could be called Predators, right?
Things started out innocently enough…
It was supposed to be a relatively easy hike, with one small climb.
But then we apparently missed a turn and things got dicey in a hurry. Like there was no longer a discernable trail to follow, so we had to blaze one.
Why didn’t we just turn back? I was asking myself that very question as we were reduced to crawling through the jungle-like bushes on our hands and knees in places. And oh yeah, lots of those bushes were sticker bushes. We definitely left some blood on the trail.
Onward and upward we plodded and climbed until we had achieved much more elevation than we had intended.
It was a strenuous climb and scary in places, but at last, we reached the summit. And guess what? We could not find a trail down the other side. Every place we tried to go down had a cliff-like drop. What to do? Admit defeat and retreat to from whence we came.
And the hike down was as difficult as the climb up had been. Lots of sliding down on your ass required.
But we made it back down to our intended path without serious injury.
The creek that feeds the falls. Speaking of which, Scott slipped on a rock and had a refreshing fall into the water.
Local folks enjoying some relaxation creekside…
We eventually made our way into the Aeta village.
And I of course did my candy and cookies thing…
Now, this is the kind of hiking I’m best suited for these days…
Village life.
The natives were friendly giving us guidance on the best route back to the car.
I never saw a pink cow (carabao) before. Maybe it’s been cross-bred with a pig?
New roads, new vistas.
Hurry up, damn it!
Time to go home.

It turned about to be a pretty arduous day. Glad to have got through it with just a few scrapes and scratches. Things don’t always go they way you intend, but I guess that provides an element of adventure.

Monday I’ll be Hare along with Scott and Jim for the Hash trail. We are pretty much just going to use what we scouted on our Wednesday hike this week.

This afternoon, Jessa is coming over along with some of her girlfriends. I’ll be serving spaghetti and meatballs for our meal.

And that’s how this free man is living his free life. Such as it is.

Nothing to bar me now

A challenging hike today but I’ll write about that tomorrow. The big news around here is that under the recently implemented modified quarantine standard things are beginning to open up, including–wait for it– some bars!

Obviously, this is big news for a guy like me. Although honestly, I’ve come to understand that a place like “Gomans” fulfills my needs just fine. In the past, it was always just a nice restaurant I’d visit a couple of times a month. Now I enjoy a seat on the back patio with a cold beer and sweet views of the bay. That’s been enough to get me by.

Yesterday I got a message from the manager of the Outback bar (the Speakeasy as I used to refer to it) that they are officially (legally) open for business again. That’s great to hear. Did I visit there last night? Nope, I went back to “Goman’s”. Partly out of loyalty for taking care of me when no one else would. And in part because the manager who wants me back is the same guy who kicked me out without just cause. You didn’t want my business when you claimed to be closed, you won’t get it now that you are wide open.

Today I’ve learned that Hot Zone has also opened again. It is or was a girly bar. I plan to drop by for a quick beer tonight to check it out and say hello to the owner. I’m hoping that my other old haunts and hangouts will soon be following suit–Cheap Charlies for the views and Alley Cats for the darts. After the hike today we popped into The Pub, which is more of a restaurant than a bar, notwithstanding the name. It’s open again under its food license but we were served beer–in plastic cups. Hey, the Philly Cheese Steak was good and the beverage was cold. What else matters?

Anyway, it is good to feel like at least some aspects of my life are getting back to normal.

And I’ll break it again tomorrow, the good Lord willing!

I’ll leave you with a little taste of political humor:

Smoke ’em if you got ’em!

I see dead people

Not literally of course. But I do seem to get my share of messages from the realm of the unknown quite often these days. Or maybe it is just my imagination.

On this morning’s stroll, I passed by some housing I never really noticed before. Just a duplex looking place on a street I’ve walked dozens of times. But for some reason, I noticed the names of the residents above the address/mail slot.

It’s a crappy photo, but can you make out the names? Love and Faith.

What are the odds that Love and Faith would wind up being neighbors? I guess technically you can’t have one without the other. Maybe I’m reading too much into this. I suppose the people living there did this as an inside joke or something, but if so, they went to a lot of trouble doing it. Those names are erected in rebar and welded to the gate. No, I prefer to think that Faith and Love have found each other and are living happily ever after on Villas Street. Or maybe the Gods are telling me to have faith and open my heart to love. One of those.

Anyway, not much else interesting going on in my life today. I do have my afternoon walk to complete yet, so maybe I’ll find a message in a bottle or something. In the meantime, here are some photos Scott posted from yesterday’s hike:

We went around Black Rock mountain rather than over it.
And I was spreading sweetness in the form of candy along the way…
I do try to make sure there is an adult around. Yeah, it is a little creepy for an old guy to give kids candy I suppose. And I want a parent around to make sure the kids share and not fight over it.
These gals were friendly and smiling so I rewarded their sweetness.
Near the end of the hike, I encountered these “regulars” who upon seeing me immediately started clamoring for candy. I was glad I had something left to give them!
Walk on and see what tomorrow will bring.

Actually, tomorrow is going to bring another group hike. Stay tuned!

Out of kilter

This post is a little askew…

So yesterday’s date with Jessa went fine for the most part. But something seemed a little off in a way I can’t put my finger on just yet. The date started with her arriving 30 minutes late. I get the whole “Filipina time” cultural thing, but it is still a little offputting. We dined at the Arizona resort, the first time I’ve eaten at one of my favorite restaurants since this whole COVID pandemic hysteria ruined the world as we knew it.

The food was fine. We were the only diners. It was a creepy vibe.

Jessa had a T-bone steak (950 pesos!) and I went with the grilled chicken breast. After our meal, she wasn’t interested in walking back to my place so we took a trike. Upon arrival, I made us some banana smoothies (she preferred no strawberries!) for dessert. Then we opened up some beers and settled into the couch to watch a couple of episodes of The Outsider. It’s based on a Stephen King novel I haven’t read. We’ve watched five of the ten episodes now and I’d rate it a solid “okay”.

Then we went upstairs for boom-boom which was more satisfying than watching television for sure. She really is a sensuous young woman with a very sexy body. Even though she doesn’t shave her legs. Afterward, she asked for a massage which I gladly provided. She didn’t offer to reciprocate. She likes to cuddle when we sleep. I rolled over while sleeping and was hugging a pillow and she nudged me to come back and hold her instead.

Later in the night I actually dreamed about her. In the dream, she told me she loved me. When I awoke and laid there thinking about it I wasn’t sure how that made me feel. And that’s pretty much how I’ve felt since. Ambivalent maybe. Or maybe it’s all just too soon. Or maybe I’m just a fucked up mess when it comes to relationships. I don’t know, maybe I’ll figure it out. There’s nothing wrong with Jessa, like I said, it just feels “off” somehow.

This morning I was up a couple of hours before her. I made up a batch of blueberry muffins and served them with bacon and eggs. She seemed to enjoy the meal. I sent her home with a bottle of wine, some leftover muffins, and a bag of candy for her daughter. As I walked her to the trike stand she asked me if expected her to join me at the Hash. I told her honestly that I didn’t want her to feel obligated to do ANYTHING with me that she didn’t really want to do. I said I know you have no interest in Hashing or hiking but I appreciated her asking me about it. Then I put her in a trike and sent her home.

So, that’s the down and dirty on the date. Again, for the most part, it was quite enjoyable. She’s good company, good looking, has some passion about her, and enjoys getting physical. I don’t know why I’m not crazy about her.

Met up with the guys a little later and we did a long, mostly flat, 11K hike.

Our only real uphill of the day…
Life in the countryside…
…and on the trail.

After the hike, we visited Harley’s on Baloy beach for lunch and beers.

I had to sit at a separate table to ensure proper social distancing. More or less.
But I had a very nice view from my seat.

The other news is that as of today we are now under Modified General Community Quarantine (MGCQ). I’m not sure what that will mean in terms of things that matter (like bars reopening) but at least there is this:

So, I got three hours of my life back every day (it was 7 to 5). And oh yeah, no more Sunday lockdown!

I reckon that’s progress in the right direction. In these trying times perhaps that’s the best we can hope for. Says the 64-year-old man who can’t figure out why he’s not crazy about a hot 32-year-old who seems to be into him.

Is that a first world or a third world problem?