So many beaches, so little time

I was once again tasked with leading the Wednesday Walkers group hike yesterday. Honestly, it is challenging to think of a trail we all haven’t done recently. That’s one of the downsides of group hikes three days a week I suppose. I’m not familiar enough with the out-of-town areas to try and get that creative, so I settled on doing a beach walk to the old Navy base, then a climb up the Kalaklan ridgeline, and coming back down into Barretto. It had been over a year since I’d personally tried the beach walk and some things have changed. Twice we had to wade across small rivers where they emptied into the bay, and once we had to go into the water to get around a recently constructed fence. Other than that it was rather pleasant to see the beaches outside of Barretto. Then ridgeline is always a pain in the ass to climb, but we took the path that is easiest among difficult choices. All in, we did 8K and my hike mates seemed to have enjoyed it. Mission accomplished. Pictures later in this post.

The remainder of the day was also filled with fun and a dash of excitement. Well, maybe fun is an overstatement, but the hours got filled and that’s what it is all about, right? Started with our dart league match against Blue Butterfly bar. We won 12-1 but I wasn’t happy with my performance. I was involved in our one defeat and it is ridiculous how poorly I threw. I take full responsibility. We are playing the #1 team in the league next week and all of us are going to have to throw a hell of a lot better than we did yesterday.

“Jenny” didn’t show up to watch me play, which was disappointing. She was drinking with her neighbors at a resort hotel on Baloy and invited me to join in but after an afternoon of beers, I just wasn’t feeling it. No problem though, she joined me this morning for a very nice walk, then came over to my place for a burrito lunch. She really is a special woman, but we are taking things very slowly and that’s fine too.

Then I got a surprise message from Novi, a gal I had met last year when she worked at BarCelona. Actually, she quit the day after we met and although we remained Facebook friends, we never interacted. Last night she said she had started working again at a bar called The Green Room (located on the ground floor under BarCelona) and hoped I’d come to visit. Having nothing else to do, I popped in. It was good to see her again and I remembered why I had liked her that night I had met her long ago. We shared some drinks and laughs, and pizza. It was a good time. Oh, and she wants to go to the Hash on Monday. I guess we’ll see how serious she is about that soon enough.

She’s cuter in real life…

One of my former friends with benefits wanted to come over this afternoon to give me a “massage”, but I told her I wasn’t interested. I’m really not wanting to get back in that mode where I pay for intimacy.

I previously agreed to meet with an acquaintance who wants to introduce me to her schoolteacher friend. I’m kind of regretting it now because I’m a little bit uncomfortable with the idea of crushing someone’s expectations. Yeah, I don’t currently have a girlfriend and unless this new woman (I’m not sure of her age, but her kids are grown) is an angel sent to rescue my lost soul and heal my broken heart, I’m probably going to take a pass. I made it clear in my message to her friend that this is a “meet, greet, and eat” event, nothing more.

I don’t know, maybe it’s good to have options. It’s hard to go all-in with Jenny when she’s been pretty adamant that she’s not willing yet to take the plunge with me. Still, I enjoy her company and don’t want to fuck up a budding friendship by getting distracted with other women.

Yeah, look at me. Suddenly, I’m seemingly popular with the ladies. I’m going to take it slow and easy and just wait to see what happens next.

To the Wednesday Walkers photos then:

This week’s iteration of our group.
Standing on the beach.
We are heading all the way around to where the ridge exits the picture frame on the right.
On the beach.
Where the river meets the bay resulted in our first wet feet of the day. No other option but to wade across.
Life’s a beach.
Sunny beaches.
Then things got a little rocky.
But we overcame the obstacle.
No more beach and more wet feet.
Leaving the beach behind us.
Making our way up to Kalaklan ridge.
One of the finer homes in this village.
Looking back at the beach we traveled.
Hello, Olongapo City!
“Are you down taking pictures now? We came to hike, not wait on you!” Sorry, guys!
Heading back down to Barretto.
Rehydration at Dynamite Dick’s. That’s Dick in the middle.

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All in all it was a good day. Better than most in fact. More about today, tomorrow.

Girlfriend shopping

Though half a score of years are gone,
Spring comes as sharply now as then—
But if we had it all to do
It would be done the same again.
It was a spring that never came;
But we have lived enough to know
That what we never have, remains;
It is the things we have that go.”
–Sara Teasdale

Yeah, I’m still missing my ex-girlfriend. I think about her all the time and hope she is happy. Meanwhile, life goes on and I need to make the best of it. “Jenny” went grocery shopping at Royal with me yesterday. I was prepared to let her fill a basket at my expense, but she just picked up a couple of things and didn’t want me to pay for them. I insisted though. I really do enjoy her company, but she’s made it clear that she is not looking for a relationship right now, always emphasizing that we are just friends. Okay. I can always use a friend.

Jenny did come home with me after shopping and made a drink that consists of coffee and vanilla ice cream. Can’t remember what it is called, but sounds like avocado. Might be French. We sat out on the back deck and enjoyed the view while we had our drink. She’s just accepted a new job as an online recruiter so had to cancel her planned trip to Germany. Said she might take an alternative vacation in Thailand. “Alone?”, I asked. She said she almost always travels alone and talked about backpacking in Cambodia by herself. I admit I was quite impressed and told her I respected her courage in doing so. She shrugged like it was no big deal. Good for her!

I told Jenny again that I’m out every night and I would love for her to join me anytime she wants. She said she might, but next time it was her turn to pay. I told her that wasn’t necessary but she said wanted to repay my kindness. I looked at her and smiled and she said, “It is still too soon for that.” I burst out laughing and said, “oh shit, you can read my mind!”. She laughed too and said it was pretty obvious what I was thinking. Still, I’m glad we are on the same wavelength even if she is unwilling to take it to the next level. Yet.

We finished our drinks and I walked Jenny out of the neighborhood. I told her I have dart league this afternoon and she said she might come by and cheer for me. I hope she does, I’d love that. This may be going nowhere, but at least it helps me stop thinking about my last love. We’ll see what happens next. If anything.

Speaking of darts, I was shit in the tourney last night. Once I was eliminated I decided to change my venue. So I made my way down to Wet Spot. Was surprised to see a large crowd on a Tuesday night, it looks like the tourists have indeed returned. And maybe not so coincidentally, the girls were dancing on stage again. First time I’d seen that since the scamdemic started. Perhaps things really are getting back to normal.

The waitress from Sit-n-Bull came by and I was feeling a little hungry so I ordered up a pizza. Yeah, I got Hawaiian with pineapple. I knew I’d be sharing and the Filipinas love this one. Sue me.
My “regular” Wet Spot girl wasn’t working, so I had my waitress join me for dinner and a drink. Nice to meet you, Grace. There was plenty of pizza left for the other girls to enjoy too.

After a couple of beers at Wet Spot, I made my way home via trike. Was in bed by 9 p.m. Up this morning at 4 a.m. Yep, I am back on my “lonely old man with no girlfriend” schedule once again. Oh well, there are worse fates I suppose.

An interesting morning hike with the Wednesday Walkers this morning. I will write about that tomorrow. Right now I am running late for dart league. Man, these whacked Wednesdays are tough!

This too shall pass.

Hares looking at you, kid

Along with my fellow Hares (Blow My Pipe and Pubic Head), we pulled off a successful Hash yesterday. We had a huge turnout of around 60, with many new old faces in attendance–the folks who have been stuck in their home countries all these long months when visitors weren’t allowed. Good to see them back with more still on the way.

The feedback on the trail was mostly positive. I walked the first half again with the “sane” group and heard many comments like “I’ve lived here X years and have never been back here in this neighborhood”. Goal achieved! Folks also enjoyed the off-road portion, with a couple of relatively easy climbs. Anyway, being a Hare can be a challenge and you can’t please everyone, but yesterday seemed to have worked for most everyone. I’d call that a win.

Just over 7K, with half on suburban streets and the rest in the hills.
A much larger than normal “sane” group.
And we are On-On!
Into the backstreets of Matain.
We left a message on the fence of a fellow Hasher, Chief Tucker Fucker, who has not as yet managed to make it back to the Philippines. Last we heard he was hanging out in Mexico.
A path paved with good intentions.
On the beach.
Boats on the water.
A fishing village.
A river runs through it.
Off the road and into the hills.
Hello again, Easter mountain.
The second climb was Black Rock. Look close and you can see Hashers up there.
What goes up must come down, right Tinker Bell?
Ain’t they sweet? My upstairs neighbors, Penis Colada and Mixer Splitter.
Finishing up on the Govic highway on the way to our On-Home.
After hike relaxing at Smokes and Bottles.
Circle up!

Hash day is a good way to forget about everything else for a while.

This thing called life

It sure is hard to figure life out sometimes, but it sure as hell beats the alternative. The life I imagined and the life I am living are poles apart, but then again, that doesn’t make it better or worse. Not exactly an epiphany, but last night as I was sipping a beer I had a vision of my former suburban life as a retiree in the USA. I had some darts a couple of nights a week, an occasional weekend getaway, but otherwise, it was mostly sitting in front of the computer or watching TV. Damn, I got bored just typing that sentence! The point, to the extent there is one, is simply that the life you have is the one you got so make the most of it. You can be both happy and bored, especially if you don’t know what you are missing out on. I’m trying to get reconciled to my new old single life, and it is easy to lament what you’ve lost rather than embrace what you have. A year from now I might look back and remember this time as good ol’ days. It’s really not so bad.

Last evening was another opportunity to ensure my bargirl friends earned some lady drink commissions. I spent most of my time at It Doesn’t Matter quenching the thirst of Agnes and Roan.

“I’ve got dozens of friends and the fun never ends, that is, as long as I’m buying…”

Anyway, it is now well understood that I am nothing but a customer, and spending time with me is just part of the job. That’s just the way the game is played. Nothing to feel bad about.

After I left IDM, I stopped into BarCelona for a couple more before heading home. Engaged my favorite there, Kira, in some banter. In the course of our conversation, she also made it clear that work is work, and after work, she’s all about spending time with her kids. No room for a man in her life she says. And I’m man enough to not take a bargirl’s rejection personally.

“God pity us both and pity us all who vainly the dreams of youth recall. For of all the sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these: It might have been.”

Hash Monday has arrived. Went out this morning and put the finishing touches on our trail. I’m pretty happy with it…longish but mostly flat. I’ll let you know how my fellow Hashers feel about that tomorrow. You can get a taste of what the kennel is in for here:

I hadn’t thought about the M.A.S.H. theme song in forever, but it came up in a Quora forum I was reading this morning. The words weren’t featured in the television show (just the music) but seeing them again triggered some emotions. Oddly enough, the song was supposed to be silly/stupid–the lyrics were written by a 14-year-old if Quora is to be believed anyway. What do you think?

Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see

That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please


That game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The sword of time will pierce our skin
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger, watch it grin

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are key
"Is it to be or not to be?"
And I replied, "Oh, why ask me?"

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I...

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And you can do the same thing if you please

I’m choosing life. I can hardly wait to see what happens next!

Time to move on?

“Life is unfortunately designed to let us down. People die, we can get sick and marriages end. We need to use the fragility of life as a reminder to be present and savor the happy moments when we have them, and to remember that as day moves to night, so too does night turn to day.”

Seen on Quora

The construction behind my residence continues with all the noise and dust inherent in such a project.

Still a LONG way to go before the house is completed.
And judging by the height of these recently installed beams, the house is going to obliterate my cherished bay view.
Got to give props to the construction workers though. No way I’m doing the high work.

Anyway, my lease here is up in June and I’m thinking it may be time to move on to somewhere else. Well, I don’t mean leave Barretto, just find a more comfortable place to live. My current digs are a bit smaller than I prefer and it is not really great for the dogs. Hmm, my old place is still vacant. Maybe the former landlord is ready to make a deal to get me back? We’ll see.

I guess the other news from my Saturday is that I went out on a date. Asked her to dinner and she accepted. We enjoyed a fine meal at Da’Kudos (grilled pork chops and roast chicken salad) and a couple of beers afterward at Johan’s.

The sunset we shared.

As far as first dates go, I’d call this one a success. I didn’t know much about “Jenny” other than she occasionally joins us for the group hikes. I was pleasantly surprised to discover that she is smart (college degree), articulate, witty, with a pleasant personality, and a good sense of humor. What’s not to like? Oh, she is 39 years old and hoping to have a baby while she still can. That doesn’t bode well for a future with me, but I’m always happy to make a new friend.

She’s not the type physically I’m normally attracted to, but she’s strong and healthy. And a great personality.

No great expectations, but perhaps we’ll share some best of times in the future. (Yeah, I’m quite the Dickens, aren’t I?)

And here we are filling in the hours on another Sunday. I started my day with a pleasant dog walk.

And saw fire on the mountain.

I’m one of the Hares for tomorrow’s Hash run, so we were out scouting and marking the trail this morning. It came in at around 7K, with one moderately easy climb and an optional visit to the top of Black Rock for those adventurous souls who want another mountain to climb. I’m going back out with co-Hare Blow My Pipe tomorrow morning to do some bushwhacking on some overgrown areas of the trail.

Us Hares rewarded our hard work with lunch at John’s place.

First time I tried his pulled pork. It was tasty, although I think I prefer it saturated in sauce like I make it at home.

And that pretty much is where things stand as of now.

Still carrying on

One morning I woke up and I knew you were really gone
A new day, a new way, and new eyes to see the dawn
Go your way, I’ll go mine, and carry on

When I post here I do a quick search in an effort to avoid duplication of the title. After 17 years of blogging, that can sometimes be a challenge. And sure enough, the title I had in mind for today was “Carry on” which I had used back in September 2017. That was another of my typical navel-gazing posts lamenting the patheticness of my life in Pyeongtaek, Korea. I was surprised at how familiar it all sounded–things never seem to change with me. Of course, looking back on those days now, I realize I was living a good life but was too blinded by wallowing in self-pity that I couldn’t see that truth. And it occurs to me I might be making that same mistake again. Perhaps I’ll put this perspective to good use and embrace and enjoy my life for what it is now, rather than be disappointed for what it is not. We shall see.

Anyway, an interesting Friday in my little corner of the world. I led the Friday group hike and we covered the familiar ground of the My Bitch trail in its entirety, then took a path down to the Naugsol valley, then back to Barretto. 6.5K back to my house, a little longer for the rest of the group. Folks seemed to enjoy it and we had a couple of newbies along as well. Also joining us were Betty and Todd, who recently returned to the newly opened for tourists Philippines. Welcome back. Photos at the end of this post.

A successful evening of darts as I went undefeated in the Alley Cats tourney. I play to have a little distraction from the usual “sitting there having a beer mode”, but I’d still rather throw well than not. Winning is secondary, but I guess I still have some of that competitive fire deep down inside.

Wound up going head-to-head with Jocelyn again. This time I didn’t lose on purpose and prevailed after a hard-fought battle.

After darts, I took the long walk to the other side of town and enjoyed some bulgogi and Korean-style chicken wings at John’s new place. Then I finished my night at It Doesn’t Matter. Stayed out until nearly midnight which is quite unusual for me.

Here we go again.

The truth of the matter is I miss having a girlfriend. I guess I got spoiled, but these days the time I spend in the company of bargirls is just not very satisfying. I’d love to have a partner to share things with, to take care of each other, and yeah, to cuddle with and wake up beside. To find that I’m going to have to find someone who feels the same way. I’m not really even talking about a passionate “love” thing necessarily, a companion who enjoys my company too would satisfice.

Of course, that’s easier said than done. My first tentative steps in that direction have borne no fruit. One gal I asked about whether she’d be interested in dating me flat out said “no, I think of you like a daddy.” Ouch! Well, she is young enough to be my granddaughter so I can kind of understand. The other one I asked is mid-30s but she also wasn’t interested in being more than friends. She says she’s been burned too many times and prefers living her life without a man, focusing instead on her children. I tried to convince her that I was different, but she made it clear she had no interest in spending time with me other than at the bar. I respect her brutal honesty.

I did have one gal say she is tired of the bar and asked if she could work for me. I told her I already have a full-time and a part-time helper. She clarified that she would like to work under me as a companion. Hmm, paying to have a girlfriend. I’m not quite that desperate yet. In some ways, the idea is intriguing though, but then again, it would all be so fake that I doubt I’d find much joy in it.

Granted, all three of the above are bargirls. I am trying to expand my horizons. Been spending some time on the dating sites and there is one gal who occasionally hikes who has caught my interest. I’m thinking about asking her on a date to find out more.

To be, or not to be?

So, I guess that’s as good a segue into the hiking photos as anything, so let’s get to it:

Around the mountain on My Bitch and back again through the valley below.
Our group at the beginning. Yeah, I totally fucked up the lighting for this shot.
Some stairs to start our journey.
Hello there, cutie pie.
Up we go!
Still climbing.
Looking back from whence we came.
Looking forward to where we are going.
Onward!
Taking it to the Max!
In the mountain garden.
It’s a jungle out there. Eh, not so much.
Another vista.
A place to worship our good fortune.
If you look closely you will see your favorite mountain behind the fountain.
Our hardy group near the end of the hike. Everyone survived!

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Hiking? Check. Darting? Got it. Drinking? Yep. Whining about my love life (or lack thereof)? Of course. Yes, indeed. This post has it all!

Carry on, then.

Changing it up some

Feeling like a king again after having my crown re-installed by my dentist. 4000 pesos ($80.) for the rebuild of the crown and gluing it to the stub of my old tooth. We’ll see how long it holds this time.

After the dentist visit, I decided a haircut was in order. I wound up getting scalped despite asking for just a trim. That is twice in a row by two different barbers. I guess the military look is fashionable. Doesn’t really matter though, I wear a hat all the time, and the shorter the cut the longer it will be before I get scalped again.

Popped into Sit-n-Bull for some lunch on the way home. The taco platter was the daily special, so I went with that. I wasn’t disappointed and with the hunger satiated, I hoofed on home.

Pretty exciting day so far, huh? Well, here’s the thing. When it was time to head out for the evening I realized that I just can’t keep going into Barretto every night to drink copious amounts of beer. You just have to realize when it is time to make a change, and that time had finally come. So, I went to Baloy Beach instead to engage in my beer drinking ritual.

My plan was to start at McCoy’s, a nice little beach bar, and go from there. The only issue I have with McCoy’s is they have a damn loud videoke machine and as I approached, sure enough, I could hear someone singing. My intent was just to walk on by, but the manager saw me, and knowing how much I hate bad singing at high volume, signaled that I could sit in one of the nipa huts on the beach. Well, that was such a nice gesture, how could I refuse? Sat down and ordered up my first beer of the day.

The view from my nipa hut.
The view of my nipa hut.
A view of Baloy Beach in front of McCoy’s.
A view of the dreaded karaoke singers from my perch in the nipa hut. Yes, I could still hear them, but I was far enough away where I wasn’t being blasted by soundwaves.
That face I make when the beer is good but the music is bad.

I was on my third beer when the customers who had reserved the hut I was squatting in arrived, so I moved to the bar. Fortunately, the singers were drunk and only had a couple of songs left in them, so I stayed for another beer. Then my friend Erik arrived, so another round was in order.

The sun was going down, reminding me it was time to add some food to the mix. So, Erik accompanied me to Treasure Island.
The view from the bar at Treasure Island.

I had the meatball sandwich and another beer. Or was it two?

It was dark when I finished.

After dinner, I decreed a nightcap was in order, so we walked a block or so up the road to Johan’s.

No beach views from the bar at Johan’s, but a pleasant enough atmosphere.
Thanks for joining me, Erik.

My thirst for beer finally satiated, I called it a night and caught a trike home. I failed at drinking my blues away, however, and had a mostly restless night trying to get her off my mind.

Filling the hours…

…however comfortably and well.

It only hurts until the pain goes away.

A full day yesterday. The Wednesday Walkers morning hike was a mostly pleasant excursion. We did the Monday Hash trail in reverse, including most of the parts we had skipped as “sane” Hashers. As is my custom, I’ll share photos from the hike at the end of this post.

Our dart league match against the VFW team was a wipeout–13-0. And yes, we were on the winning side of that equation.

After darts, I hoofed it over to the other side of town to check out John Kim’s new place. Other than an inconvenient (for me) location, it is definitely an upgrade from his old location at The Pub.

It is now known as “John’s Sushi and Steakhouse”. The restaurant is on the second floor, the bar area is on the third floor.
Owner John Kim in front of the sushi bar…
The second-floor restaurant…
The upstairs bar area.
I had a Philly cheesesteak and fries for my dinner.
My view out front…
...and out back.

Good luck to John in his new venue. I probably won’t be a frequent visitor to this side of town, but then again, the food and ambiance make it worth the trip.

After leaving John’s place, I crossed the street and paid a visit to my old friends at The Hideaway bar. I hadn’t been here for months since I was making an effort to be a good boyfriend, but now that I’m “free” I may as well start acting like it again. Some more beers and lady drinks and a belated birthday gift (cash) for Joy. They seemed happy to see me again. Or at least my wallet.

I wasn’t done yet though. I marched myself up the highway and dropped into It Doesn’t Matter. Damn, I’d never seen the place so crowded, a waitress brought a stool from inside so I’d have a place to sit. My favorite, Roan, wasn’t working, so I settled for the company of Agnes. She’s nice too, just not as witty and engaging as Roan. A couple of beers and I was ready to move on.

The next stop was BarCelona. There I enjoyed the company of my waitress, Kira.

She has an intriguing look about her, don’t you think?

Not that it matters. I know listening to my banter in exchange for lady drinks is just her job. Some are better at it than others, and Kira is fun to engage with. I have no illusions or any real interest in trying to make it more than it is. I have no reason to believe she feels otherwise either. That’s the whole emptiness and meaninglessness about the bar life I’ve mentioned before. Why bother at all? Well, none of them have the power to cause me emotional pain, and sometimes it’s simply better than drinking alone.

I always go home alone though. And after nearly 8 hours straight of beer drinking, I was definitely feeling no pain. That’s the problem with dart league, the early start throws me off schedule. Oh well, at least it is only once a week.

Pictures from the hike:

If it looks familiar, it’s because that’s Monday’s Hash hike. We just did it backward.
This week’s Wednesday Walkers.
Leaving Alta Vista.
Off the pavement…
…and onto the beaten path.
One of several moderate climbs.
The grassy knoll.
Near the top of another climb.
A garden fence.
Marching onward and upward.
Through the woods.
A gathering of like-minded individuals.
Look out below!
We got this.
Ups and downs, downs and ups.
Some womenfolk who knew Scott by name. Friends of his gal I suspect.
A little inconvenient to get to, but I reckon the rent is reasonable.
Follow me!
Friendly locals.
Happy kiddies.
Watching and waiting.
Heading on home.
For you Easter mountain addicts.

And that was my whacked and drunken Wednesday. Now I’m off to the dentist. Livin’ large and waiting for the next big thing to come along and slap me upside of the head. Stick around!

Those shoes

Tuesday is grocery shopping day around here and nothing much to say about that except inflation, especially on imported products, is out of control. Kraft cheese slices, anyone? Not unless you are willing to pay $10.95 for sixteen slices. Nope, not me.

I did change things up some by having my driver drop me off near the mall. I walked over to the SM Downtown and had five minutes to kill before the mall opened. Went to the marketplace across the street and bought a phone charger and a new cable for my power pack. Back to the mall for some shoes and they didn’t have any of my selections in size 11. The clerk did bring out the only pair in my size and I bought them even though I didn’t particularly like them.

Next, I hoofed it over to the nearby Harbor Point mall on the old Navy base. There is a Merrill shoe store there where I’ve had some successful purchases in the past. Rather than pick out shoes I liked only to be disappointed, I said show me what you got in an 11. Once again, they didn’t have anything I’d normally choose in my size, but I settled on two pairs that were 40% off the regular price.

I’ll be marching Merrill-y down the road with these purchases.

After my shopping spree and before catching a taxi home, I had a hankering for a Whopper so I popped into the Burger King in the mall.

Honestly, it wasn’t nearly as good as I remembered it to be.

A quiet afternoon at home, then off to the dart tourney at Alley Cats. I didn’t play particularly well and then I lost interest in playing at all. I was in the loser’s bracket playing against Jocelyn. I needed one bull to win and advance to the next round. The truth was, I didn’t want to win and for the first time in my darting career, I lost intentionally. Didn’t hide it very well either. Jocelyn was surprised but didn’t seem too upset. But I understand it takes the fun out of the competition if your opponent lets you win. I’m sorry about that, I just haven’t been myself lately.

Jessel, one of the waitresses, was wearing this t-shirt last night:

I found it kind of ironic. You may recall that last summer I had “chosen” her, only to be rejected.

After darts, I visited Cheap Charlies. They were surprisingly busy for a Tuesday night. My “regular” gals were all occupied with other customers. It was a good reminder though that I am nothing special to them, just another source of revenue. Sometimes I let my imagination tell me otherwise, but reality is always there to give you a bitch-slap when you need one.

After a few beers, I went home comfortably numb. Got up this morning and did my normal routines, then headed out for the Wednesday Walkers group hike.

One of my new pair of shoes after their first day on trail.

Now it is time to shower up and get ready for the remainder of my Whacked Wednesday, starting with dart league this afternoon. Not sure where I’m going after darts, but I reckon it will be a place that sells beer. Stay tuned for tomorrow’s report on how that works out for me.

I’m not as big as I once was, but I’m as big now as I’ll ever be. Hopefully.

And for you Eagles fans:

Forward March

I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it. –Groucho Marx

Turning the page on the calendar and marching on to whatever the future may bring. Taking my cue from Groucho, I intend to live each and every day to the fullest, making the best of each one, until my days are finally over. Practically speaking, just what does that mean? I reckon there will lots of hiking, darting, and drinking along the way. But I’m also going to be open to whatever new adventures that may come my way. I’m currently in the preliminary stages of planning a trip to explore Bohol, one of the beautiful islands here that I have yet to visit.

Alas, I’ll be traveling alone.

No worries, I’m pretty much reconciled to living a loveless life. There are worse fates. I don’t regret the loves I’ve found and lost in life. Things happen, dreams change, people move on, and that’s just the way life goes.

That’s just the way it happens sometimes You can hold on to the love you feel for someone even if you can’t hold on to them.

But enough about me, let’s talk about the Hash! A good trail by Leech My Nuggets that started and ended at his house here in Alta Vista.

The orange trail is the one our Hare intended, the white trail shows the modifications us “sane” Hashers deemed appropriate.
You’ll never meet a saner group of Hashers!
And we are On-On!
Marching through the backroads of Alta Vista.
And into Filipinoland.
Where the natives are friendly…
…and the kids love cookies.
The good, the bad, and the ugly.
What’s up here?
Big men on trail.
We had one good climb on the day.
That’s me finding my way.
The view from the top.
Despite our 30-minute headstart and shortcuts, we are always passed by the runners at some point.
We were poles apart.
I didn’t forget you, Easter mountain.
Lead us On-Home, Pubic Head.
Thanks for the nice trail and hospitality, Leech!

And that was my Monday. Well, I did get to spend some quality time with a very special friend after the Hash. We shared a chicken and some comfort. Sometimes that is all you need.

And now for today’s “sermon”:

Now, I don't want to lose you
But I don't want to use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I don't want to hate you
I don't want to take you
But I don't want to be the one to cry

And that don't really matter
To anyone anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door


But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you
Baby, you don't have to take the fall
Yes, I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all

It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
And do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby, sometimes love, it just ain't enough