The girlfriend packed her things this morning and left me. The fact that this ending was inevitable doesn’t make it any less painful. I love her but sometimes love just isn’t enough. And I had promised that when this day came I would support her decision. You can’t love someone and not do whatever it takes for her to be happy, even at the cost of your own happiness. We parted with a hug and a promise to hold on to the memory of the love we shared. That is a much better ending than the “fuck off” it could have been. I’m thankful for that.
And that is how this first day of the rest of my life began. I did a long hike with the Wednesday Walkers group this morning. That did help me clear my head a little. Next up is darts league. And after that, I expect I’ll find a comfortable place to sit and drink my pain away. Yep, time to embrace the meaninglessness and emptiness of my life without love once again. The best part of that is that no one can hurt me there.
Is she suddenly moving to Japan or something? I thought she just started a new bar/restaurant. Anyway, sorry to hear the news.
No, nothing like that. She decided I’m not the one for her and it was time to let me go and move on to something else.
Sorry to hear that John. Life will go on, sun will come up, and all those other cliches. Easy to say, but doesn’t really make it any easier on the soul at the moment.
“Value yourself enough to choose to be with someone who wants you as much as you want them”
Thanks, Brian. That last one really rings true.
Glad it was not a angry parting
Yes, we are still friends. In many ways, a friendship is better than a relationship. Or so I keep telling myself.