Seeing red…

…feeling blue.

Last night might have been my worst since moving to the Philippines. It’s a special kind of pain when you are honestly doing your best but your best just isn’t good enough. How do you fix that?

It’s another whacked Wednesday. Did my morning hike with the Walkers group. Now I need to shower up and get ready for dart league. I really hate feeling rushed and not having time for my nap. Oh well.

Speaking of darts, I went undefeated through the winner’s bracket, then dropped out of the tournament last night. My mind was somewhere else altogether and I just wasn’t feeling it.

Yeah, I’m falling apart. I need to figure out how to get my shit together and get back to being content with my life. So much for my illusions of being in control of my emotions.

This too shall pass. Hopefully soon.

4 thoughts on “Seeing red…

  1. Watch out for your emotional and mental health Mr…your body will respond to it. Whatever that color you are seeing now, remember there is always rainbow after the rain….and it’s beautiful! Keep up the good deeds…believe in your instinct…always have your feet on the ground…goodluck!

  2. I guess I’ll wait for subsequent posts to clarify what all this means. Or are you practicing a Dan Brown* style of blogging, i.e., always ending on a cryptic cliffhanger to keep the reader reading?

    Seriously, though—feel better, just breathe, and stay sane.

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    *Author of The Da Vinci Code.

  3. Thanks, feeling better already! Still a good reminder to maintain as much emotional control as possible. The “cliffhanger” was not so much intentional as it was to remain discrete. But hey, if it keeps readers coming back, win-win!

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