Not much posting going on here at LTG of late, but the fact of the matter is there just isn’t much happening in my life worthy of note.  Of course, that’s never stopped me from writing about nothing before.  Truth is, I’m in a bit of a funk.  It goes beyond mere boredom.  I was often bored in Korea as well, but at least I wasn’t so damn lonely.  Yes, I miss my wife.

I’m one of those types who just doesn’t seem to fare well on his own.  I tend to sink into an abyss of unmotivated laziness.  Jee Yeun would shame me out of my worst behaviors, like sitting around in my underwear all day smoking cigarettes and watching Captain Kangaroo.  Well, the television is better quality that the Statler Brothers enjoyed but you get my meaning.  I’ve also been playing Civilization marathons which fills the hours but leaves me feeling unsatisfied and a little depressed.  I’m just wasting time, however comfortably and well.  And at my age, the last thing I should be doing is wasting whatever time I might have left.  I reckon I ought to put a boot up my ass and break out of this cycle of despair.  Just not sure where to start and I’m feeling trapped.  Fuck it.  I’ll think of something.

If it weren’t for darts I might not ever leave the house.  I’ve taken road trips to play in Charlotte and Aiken, and tomorrow I’m going to head up to Greenville for the afternoon to shoot in a regional qualifier.  I’ve been a little disappointed with the degradation of the dart scene here in Columbia.  Some personality conflicts have created a situation where darts are no longer played at my favorite pub.  I did my best to mend those fences but to no avail.  So I’m breaking out on my own and starting a new tournament that I’m calling #TDT (throw darts Thursday).  Not sure I can bring people back but I’ll give it a shot.

And that’s about it.  I haven’t heard from Jee Yeun for a few days.  I’m guessing they don’t have internet in the countryside or something.  Last time we talked (messaged) she said she’d be coming home to me as soon as she can get moved out of her apartment.  I’m hoping that means sometime this month.

“It’s like I told you, only the lonely can play…”