No idea what is wrong with me or why I have lost the desire to blog.
Well, I guess I do have an idea.
I am feeling a bit disconnected from everything and everyone in the world. And what is left isn’t all that interesting to me, so I can’t imagine why it would be to any intrepid visitor who might somehow come across this weary blog.
This is the life I have chosen. And that nearly everyone I care about has found me unworthy for living this way only underscores the isolation. But yes, I take full responsibility for my decisions. And I acknowledge my selfishness is choosing to seek meaning in my life rather than living as others would have me to do.
So there it is. Turn your back if you must. I never asked for understanding anyway. And I won’t ask for what I cannot give.
Try as I might though, I can’t stop caring.
I am sorry if that is not enough.
Decisions in life are made based upon what your searching for or on what makes you happy. You know leaving Korea was the hardest thing I had ever done but I did it for a reson of making my sons happy. Yet, remember I still call there home and the friends I have there such as yourself and the guys (you all know who you are), I still call family. When I go back you better be there or in PI so I can visit. Miss you all.