I apologize for leaving you in suspense yesterday. My focus was elsewhere. I’m not going to go into a lot of details because it’s all still too up close and personal. Suffice it to say, we hit a big pothole on Relationship Road that did some damage. I wasn’t sure if things could be fixed or not, but we’ve made some progress on the repairs, and as of today, we are moving forward once again. It was a painful reminder to me about how much is at risk when you entrust your heart to another. The prospect of losing the love game yet again made me realize I’m in the now-or-never stage of my life. If destiny (or Karma) dictates that I’m bound to die alone, so be it. I have zero tolerance for drama, and I’ll flee if necessary to avoid it in the future. Going forward, I’ll keep my eyes wide open–one on the road ahead, and one on the rearview mirror for lessons learned.
And now, let’s get back to our regular programming:
It was another Hash Monday, but I opted not to do the Kalaklan climb. My mood was still sour, so I got some documents copied that I needed for my upcoming trip and then embarked on a street walk instead. Yes, Swan and her friend Beth came along.
Still not much interaction when we got home. I went to bed, and Swan stayed up watching television. She was beside me in bed when I awoke, and we started the day with a hug. Progress! I’m still blocked on her Facebook and Messenger, though.
It’s February 2010 as I continue my trek through the LTG archives. This post about all the cars I’ve owned before was full of happy memories. If I hadn’t written about those times back then, I’d have forgotten most of them today. See, this blog does serve a purpose! It remembers what my brain forgets.
I had a chuckle when I came across today’s YouTube video from Reekay about how to end romance drama. NOW you tell me! Truthfully, my problems were nothing like the incidents Reekay mentions. I was treated rudely, and I overreacted; things escalated from there. Hopefully, we’ve both learned some lessons.
A dose of humor medication:
Anyway, it is what it is. Whatever the ultimate outcome, I know that I’ll be okay.
Strewth John mate if ya need to put ya missus in her place again mate just do it mate besides mate she’s already blocked ya in her socials mate so ya ain’t got nawt to lost mate cheers mate cheers
leave her, find someone who suit you. she blocked you anyway, kick her ass.
One morning your sitting around naked after a night of giving her anal balls deep, then a few years later your planing her murder. It’s very difficult staying with a women, but it does have it’s rewards. Hang in there John.
Like that bloke Anoyomous says, boot her out. She came with the other man’s
house, so what was all this bollocks the other day about her charity work attracting you? Grow a pair and stop being a Pussy Whipped cunt. You’ve got a good pension to pay for a carer to wipe your arse when then the time comes. Until then I wouldn’t want to have a bird in tow when I am out walking or on the town in my me time. Especially on Da Hash! That’s for the desperate and insecure. Variety is the spice of life.
Thanks for the feedback, Aloysius. Swan is a good woman and my last chance in life to get it right. If I fail, so be it, the lifestyle you suggest is always an option.
Terry, welp, after a lifetime of failed relationships I have found one common denominator in each one. That would be me. This is my last chance at love, this see if I can get it right this time.
Anonymous, there is always a Plan B. I’m not ready to bail on the road I’m pursuing.
Aaron, either we’ll work through this or we won’t. She’s worth the effort. Bottom line, if you love someone and they are not happy with you, your love demands that she be set free to pursue a better match. We haven’t reached that stage, so I’m still in the game.
Hey John, I think you deserve so much better than someone who doesn’t appreciate you for who you are. If Swan isn’t loving you the way you deserve, it’s time to take a step back and reevaluate the relationship. You’re putting in effort and resources, but it’s not translating to emotional support or love from her side.
It’s possible that Swan is using you for your financial stability, and that’s not a healthy dynamic for a relationship. You need someone who values you as a person, not just your wallet. Think about it – if she’s not loving you when you’re taking care of her financially, what would happen if you weren’t able to do that? Would she still be with you?
You deserve someone who will love and appreciate you without condition. Someone who will be there for you through thick and thin, not just when it’s convenient or beneficial for them. It’s time to prioritize your own emotional well-being and find someone who will truly love and cherish you.
Let’s focus on building your self-worth and finding someone who sees your value as a person. You don’t need someone who’s only interested in what you can provide materially. You deserve real love, respect, and care – and I believe you can find that with someone who truly appreciates you for who you are.
Dana, your artificial concern may be well-intended, but the advice lacks intelligence. Swan is not in it for the money, and I have a LONG history or running away when things don’t go my way. Whatever happens, I’ll be fine.