On Christmas morning Jee Yeun told me she was unhappy in our marriage. I asked her if she was willing to work on making things better. She told me “no, not really”.
For the next few days things seemed fine and I was thinking maybe she had reconsidered. But on Tuesday she said “I’ll help you find an apartment in Itaewon if you want”. I asked her what her plans were and she said she wants to move to the “countryside”.* Apparently, she already has a house in mind there.
It’s all very surreal. She professes to still love me and I believe her. I think she knows how much I truly love her as well. She just wants a different life and in her pragmatic way she has chosen to pursue it without me.
She told me she wanted to be with me for New Year’s Eve last night. And so for the first time in several months she joined me in Itaewon at Dolce Vita Pub. We had spent many happy nights there during our courtship.
It was an enjoyable, but bittersweet, evening. I just can’t imagine what my life is going to be without her in it. And I have a good imagination.
* “countryside” means somewhere some three hours south near where her Aunt lives. Jee Yeun says she’s happy there.