…everything put together, sooner or later falls apart
Sorry for the lack of posting recently, lots going on but I’ve not felt up to write about it. Until now anyway.
The holiday weekend was good up until it wasn’t. Thursday night I had Chuseok dinner with the nephew and a co-worker friend. Eun Oke joined us later and we had a good time drinking. Then hit the norebang. My singing has not improved.
On Friday Eun Oke joined me for a pleasant walk on the Han riverside. I prepared a meal of pulled pork and cole slaw for her. Then we hit the bars.
Saturday afternoon we joined a couple of friends for a cookout featuring ribs, potato salad, bacon wrapped asparagus (a first for me and it was delicious) and a veggie salad. I contributed a banana pudding for dessert.
Saturday night it was back to the bars where I bid farewell to some new old friends.
Eun Oke left Sunday morning to care for her dogs. She called me later and said she didn’t have to work and that she missed me. So I invited her on over. We met at Shenanigans and did some drinking. Work night though so we came home early. I fixed her some brats for dinner.
And then at two in the morning Eun Oke wakes me up and says she is leaving. I’m like “what this all about?” It seems she has decided that our future dreams are incompatible so she sees no point in continuing the relationship.
I was gobsmacked. Although she had done this exact same thing once before, but we managed to talk our way through it and I assumed the issue was resolved. Apparently not.
The first thing she did when she left (and I mean before she was out of the driveway) was block me on Facebook. Apparently she’s the type that once she decides it is over, it is over. And I have to admit her actions hurt me deeply. I got pretty sucked in and I foolishly thought she had similar feelings.
And so it goes.
Back to the solitary life of which I had previously grown accustomed. Luckily, my heart is primarily scar tissue so the bleeding shouldn’t last too long. I’ve arranged for some therapy in the form of 11 days in Thailand. I’ll leave on the 7th of October.
You can’t live in the future. You take each day as it comes and it will lead you to whatever the future turns out to be. I couldn’t make Eun Oke understand that. And it’s a shame really. She was a lot of fun and I enjoyed her company. I imagine I’ll be missing her but will remain grateful for the temporary reprieve from loneliness she gifted me.
And that’s all I’ve got.